Grief to Desperation
It was early morning. It was dark. This is how the Gospel writer John opens the journey to the tomb by a woman named Mary, Mary Magdalene, or better said, Mary from the town of Magdala. Mary was a woman who demons had possessed. Seven of them, to be exact. She was swept clean of those demons by the man from Galilee, Jesus of the town of Nazareth. By the words of Jesus, Mary’s life and her destiny were changed from misery to joy. Rather than stay in the town of Magdala, Mary traveled along with Jesus, providing support and help in Jesus’ ministry.
Mary was with Jesus just days ago when he was beaten, crucified, and died upon the cross. She watched over Jesus until his body was placed and sealed in a garden tomb. When sundown came on that day Jesus died, she left his tomb to stay with others as the Sabbath had come. Mary rested, if you can call it rest, because her mind could not turn off the horror of Jesus nailed to the cross. Mary could not stop seeing the image of his lifeless body being carried into the tomb, and sealed from view by a stone and guarded by a detachment of soldiers. The raw grief Mary experienced would not allow her to rest, and because it was the Sabbath, the religious authorities would not allow her to travel from her residence to be near Jesus at the tomb. So, Mary waited in agony and grief. The minutes passed. Slowly, those minutes became hours. Finally, the Sabbath was over when the sun went down the next day. Still, Mary had to wait until there was barely enough light to retrace her steps back to Jesus’ tomb.
The Apostle John described Mary’s return to the tomb. Other women likely accompanied Mary. But throughout John’s account of Jesus’ life, John preferred to share the story through the point of view of just one person. John wrote, “1 Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance” (John 20:1). At seeing the stone removed from the tomb’s entrance, Mary’s grief of these past days was now coupled with desperation. All Mary could imagine was that Jesus' body had been removed from the tomb. Grave robbers, religious authorities, or the Romans had taken her beloved Lord’s body from its grave. Mary’s grief was now overwhelmed by panic. John wrote, “2 So she [Mary] came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, ‘They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!’” (John 20:2).
Mary was overcome by chaos. She no longer felt happiness. There was nothing to look forward to. John described Mary’s circumstances by relating them to the time of day she traveled to the tomb. John wrote that Mary went to the tomb when it was “dark.” In theological terms, "dark" in the Bible means spiritual blindness or a lack of understanding. Grief was shouting darkly into Mary’s mind, telling her that her life was once again chaotic, lacking happiness, and without a future. Mary could not hear Jesus’ words of light and life, “1 Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. 2 My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am” (John 14:1-3).
An open tomb meant only one thing – Jesus’ body was gone, and there was no telling where his body could be now. Grief at the loss of Jesus’ life and now at the loss of his body exploded within Mary. This was a terrible moment in Mary’s preparation for the joy of the resurrection. And that transformation from grief to joy would all take place in a single word.
Disbelief to Confusion
Mary gave the news to Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved. “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!” (John 20:2). Jesus’ disciples knew Mary; they knew her story of being possessed and having been cleansed by Jesus, and her devotion to Jesus. But in the moment, all they could see was a tired, overwrought woman, consumed with grief, not a person who could be relied upon to get the facts right. They thought Mary was mistaken.
John wrote that Jesus’ apostles, Peter and John, ran to Jesus’ tomb with John arriving first and observing from outside the tomb that linen strips used to wrap Jesus’ body were in the tomb. Peter then arrived and went into the tomb, saw those linens and the cloth that had been over Jesus’ face. The apostles' disbelief at Mary’s report gave way to confusion. Had Jesus’ body been stolen or moved elsewhere? It did not make sense. Anyone moving a body would not have unwrapped a dead body. If anything, they would have wrapped more material around Jesus’ already-covered body. Jesus’ body was indeed no longer in the tomb.
The Gospel of John said that John saw and believed. But what did John believe? We are not told. Did John believe Jesus rose from the dead? It does not seem likely, as John’s gospel added, John believed, but “9 They still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead” (John 20:9). Did John believe Jesus’ body was gone? Oh, yes, he did. At that, Peter and John went back to where they were staying.
Although not mentioned in this account, it appears that Mary had followed Peter and John to the tomb. Mary saw John and Peter enter the tomb. The apostles' response confirmed Mary’s fears: Jesus' body was gone. The only thing Mary looked forward to doing was caring for Jesus’ body, and that dream was now gone, too. Mary’s life felt very hollow. But the hollowness Mary felt in her life would soon be filled and overflowing with joy by one word.
Weeping to Despair
As we return to the story, the point of view remains on Mary. John, our gospel writer, intended for us to see and feel Mary’s experience of grief, desperation, confusion, and now total despair. John wrote, “11 Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb 12 and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot. 13 They asked her, ‘Woman, why are you crying?’ ‘They have taken my Lord away,’ she said, ‘and I don’t know where they have put him’” (John 20:11-13). Mary, consumed with grief and confusion, encountered two angels within Jesus’ tomb. We experience two reactions from Mary.
The first reaction is that Mary was calm and expressed no fear at encountering the angels. Throughout the gospels, whenever someone encountered an angel, the angel began their conversation with “Fear not,” because the people in the angel's presence were terrified and deeply disturbed. Mary expressed no fear of seeing the angels. Why was that? Mary did not show fear because, for her, the worst possible thing had already happened. Jesus had been killed, and his body was missing. Mary’s lack of fear gives us insight into the depth of her grief. For Mary, to die now would be preferred to living.
The second reaction of Mary we experienced was a consuming chaos within her mind. She had encountered two beings, which she rightly identified as angels, and she made no effort to seek God’s wisdom from them. Despite the presence of angels, Mary could not feel God’s presence.
Our gospel writer, John, was painting a very specific picture for his readers. It was a picture of hell. Not hell of Dante’s Inferno. It is, however, hell. Mary was grieving deeply at her separation from Jesus, God in the flesh. In her separation, Mary ran from one place to the next, saying she was separated from God. But that brought her no comfort. Mary was experiencing chaos and despair. In her existence without any semblance of God, Mary was weeping and gnashing her teeth. She could not recall anything comforting God ever said. Even in the presence of messengers from God, she could only describe her condition and could not ask for encouragement from God. Mary was in hell, a total separation from God. This was the picture John painted.
What Mary did not know was that her release from hell would be soon. The key to freeing her was only one word away.
Despair to Rejoicing with One Word
Mary was bent down near the ground, looking into Jesus’ tomb, empty except for his grave clothes and two angelic visitors dressed in brilliant white clothing. Mary was experiencing hell, a separation from God with all the emotions that hell brings: chaos, hopelessness, weeping, gnashing of teeth, confusion, despair, darkness, and loneliness. Mary had experienced hell before when seven demons possessed her, and she was experiencing it yet again. Only this time, she no longer held out belief that someone might save her from it.
Then she felt as though there was someone behind her, near to her. “14 At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus. 15 He asked her, ‘Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?’ Thinking he was the gardener, she said, ‘Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.’ 16 Jesus said to her, ‘Mary’ (John 20:14-16a). When the woman from Magdala heard her name come from the lips of her risen Savior, all the emotions of chaos, hopelessness, weeping, gnashing of teeth, confusion, despair, darkness, and loneliness, yes hell, were cast from her, and she was filled with an overwhelming joy. “She turned toward Jesus and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (John 20:16b). With one word from Jesus, “Mary,” the woman from Magdala, Mary, once possessed, and twice in hell on earth, was made free. Mary’s life would never again approach hell. The power of the joy in having been called by name by the man who embodied life and the resurrection was too strong for any other force to overcome. The power of death, the gates of hell, and the forces of evil were no match for the uncontainable trust and faith Mary had in God through Jesus Christ.
Now filled with inexpressible joy, Jesus commissioned Mary to be the first evangelist of the resurrection. Jesus said to Mary, “Go to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’ 18 Mary Magdalene went to the disciples with the news: ‘I have seen the Lord!’ And she told them that he had said these things to her” (John 20:17b-18). Mary had joy and a divine purpose for her life. She would never taste hell again.
The story of Jesus’ resurrection, as presented by the Apostle John from Mary's point of view, is a story for each of us. Mary showed us that life separated from God is one that leads to hell, a state of chaos, hopelessness, weeping, gnashing of teeth, confusion, despair, darkness, and loneliness. Some who are separated from God in this life will experience hell twice. Once in this life and eternally after death. All who are separated from God will experience hell eternally after death. But life now and eternally need not be that way. Jesus came, lived, and died upon the cross so that we would never taste hell. The resurrection of Jesus that we celebrate today demonstrated the power of God to save us from hell, not once but twice. This is the good news of Jesus Christ.
And the good news is that the transformation from hell to joy, purpose, and life can be expressed in a single word, a word you and I know well. That one word for the woman from Magdala was her name, “Mary.” When Jesus called her by her name, hell was broken for Mary. The same is true for you and me. When Jesus speaks to us, he will do so with but one word. He will call you by your name, so that in that calling, you and I may be with him.
I have heard Jesus call me by name, and I have answered him. Hell is no longer a concern for me, either on earth or eternally, because I know my place is with God.
Many of you have heard Jesus call your name, and you have answered him. Hell is no longer a concern for you either because you have the joy of the Lord.
Some of you have heard Jesus call your name; you have answered him, but you are still holding on to the past pains of this world and denying yourself the full joy of the Lord. This is resurrection Sunday. Jesus has risen. The tomb is empty. Fill that tomb with the things of your past that keep you from having the fullness of the joy of the Lord.
A few of you have heard Jesus call you by name, but you have not answered him. You are still looking into the empty tomb, wondering what it all means. You are wondering whether Jesus was truly resurrected or if Jesus’ resurrection is just a myth. The longer you wait, pondering, the more likely you are to do nothing to accept the truth about Jesus, and the closer you come to tasting hell. Jesus said, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; 26 and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?” (John 11:25b-26). This day, know that Jesus has called you by name, and asks that you believe in Him that you too may be saved. You can trust the words of a man who died for you.
This is Resurrection Day. Let us rejoice for the power of death, the gates of hell, and forces of evil have been defeated once, for all, for you and for me, by a single word, as it was for a woman from Magdala, as Jesus said to her that morning 2,000 years ago, “Mary.” Amen and Amen.